Reflecting
on the past year it is hard to not see the obvious changes in my life. Moments happen and the change goes unnoticed
and other times there is a more in-your-face, things are totally different.
At
the stroke of midnight I was awaken by the sound of fireworks. There was a part
of me that wanted to get up, stand in the middle of the street and enjoy the
fireworks; but who would I celebrate with. I meant to stay awake but I fell
asleep. In an effort to get da boyz to sleep in their room, I was alone because
da boyz had fallen asleep upstairs. Even Roxy had disappeared off to a quite
spot. There is no poetic romance in waking up alone at the stroke of midnight
and nothing to describe the disappointment I felt.
Fireworks
displays, endless champagne, and sequence dresses is what comes to mind at New
Years. Dancing the night away and shivering in the cold because I wanted to
wear a strappy cocktail dress instead of something warmer.
It
happens a lot to me because I have these over the top dreams, like riding my
bike across America, and more often than not, it takes more coordination and
effort than the normal person wants to deal with.
Yet
again, I have a conversation with myself.
If there is something that I want bad enough, I will do it. I remind
myself that nothing is stopping me from putting on my warm pink fuzzy robe and
slippers to stand in my yard just to hear
fireworks. I proceed to remind myself
that in years past, I was standing with inebriated strangers blowing cardboard
horns and trying to make meaningful conversation.
This is
year I resolve to relish in each moment and let nothing slip by. If there is something I truly want, then I will
put the effort into making it happen. I wish the same for you- let nothing slip
by you.
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