Monday, October 25, 2010

My Mommy

It was a hard decision, but I came back to work this week. Mom’s status is the same and we could be in hospice for weeks. It’s been ten days and her heart continues to beat strong. The doctor explained it best saying that health people have good and bad days. Sick people experience the same good and bad days.

No riding. No working out. Being back in my routine should help me get back to myself.

Sunday, October 17, 2010


Sorry to keep my blogger readers hanging for so long without a post. I hope you understand that my time is consumed with Mom. This post will be simple and just enough to let you know that I am still here.

I try to keep my humor and my spirits up. I believe that is what Mom would want. Tour de Grueue is not in my future this year. Sadly, I will be unable to race in the TTT that I was hoping for but there was no time to train.

Mom's care became too much for us so we have transferred her to a hospice unit that can provide 24 hour care. Her pulse is still strong but is unable to hold conversations. It will be emanate soon.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Moments That Make Memories

She says she is tired. Tired of fighting, yet she continues to battle the day. There are days that I fear she will not make it through the day, and then a week goes by, and she does.

I sit at on the end of her bed and she tells me she is afraid. I asked her why. All she can verbalize is that she is scared.

My father’s love for my mother has grown more intense these past two years. Mom does not want to leave Dad alone. She is afraid of what his life will be like without her. I assure her that my sister and I will make sure he is taken care of. My words, I fear, don’t give her much comfort.

These past few days, Mom tells me her dreams and she makes jokes. Some days she sleeps and others, she forces herself to stay awake while friends and family visit. Either way, I am glad I can be with her to share these moments and squeeze out any last memory she wants to make.

Dad has been going through old family albums. They seem as much in love today as they did the day of their honeymoon in Hawaii.