Barbie and her Bike: May 2014

Monday, May 26, 2014

CS Park

Roxy and I found the Carrizo Springs Recreational Park and it has turned into our new favorite spot. There is a one mile track around a lake with various workout stations spread through out the track. Typically, I walk and watch Roxy run.

There are lots of animals too. Check out the jack rabbit located between 12 and 1.

The border patrol keeps the stables close and the horses are always a relaxing view.

I was glad that Roxy did not notice the turtle crawling across the field.

The guys playing basketball stopped to watch Roxy run through the lake chasing birds and ducks. She is super fast.

The day is complete as I watch the sunset over the lake.

Monday, May 12, 2014

Self Sabotage

As I read through the new feed on Facebook, I sat on the couch and put myself through a self-sabotage session. “Happy Mother’s Day” was all over the place. I tried to make the best of the situation and organized a family day at our house, but Nina cancelled. My bonus mom (bonus mom is my new word for step-mother) just cancelled Mother’s Day and I started missing My Mom terribly.

A Half dozen close friends wished me Happy Mother’s Day but I feel far from a mother. A mother to Roxy, yes. A hopeful and wishing I were an expecting mother, yes. A step-mother, yes. But, not a real mother. Which begs the questions: What is a real mother?

The list of endless responsibilities a mother has is endless but the one that tops my list is a friend. This is where I start missing My Mom again. No amount of floor tiling, walking Roxy, or cooking can erase the feeling. There seems to be no replacement.

So yet again, I put myself through another self-sabotage session and I started going through blogs from the CrossRoads riders for 2014. As traditional has it, the ride in LA always starts on Mother’s Day. I remember 2009 and the excitement of dipping my wheel in the Pacific.

I could sit here all day being sad or get back on my bike to cheer myself up.